I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I start on Mon. so I am really excited! It is a Federal Job through a temp company which means I have to have a background check that will take like 4-6 months so I will be doing paper work until I get clearance to do computer work. I am excited; I am hoping that I can be there for the next 2 years while Rob is finishing school. So please pray that this job is a good fit (I think it is perfect, and I got it so I hope God does too). In case you didn't catch the previous posts Rob and I are trading places for a while so he can finish school without the stress of his back and a job. He will be a stay at home dad :) When he starts fall term he is planning on possibly going to day classes so he can work pt at night (somewhere) maybe.
A THOUGHT ON GODS WILL (this is a tangent... maybe... feel free to skip to more life stuff in the following paragraphs): I want God's will but sometimes you hope he isn't presenting an opportunity to build your character or teach you something in a not smooth life kinda way (hope that makes since). For ex: do you notice how old people and people that are well off always win the lotto? I mean MOST people that win don't actually NEED the money, old people are almost done with life (keep reading till the end, not trying to offend) they have learned everything they needed to know the hard way so they are not going to dramatically change because they come into a load of money, they are going to pay off their debt and keep living the way they would normally (and maybe gift some of the rest of the family). But for the young we still have to go through life’s hard lessons and learn things the hard way so we can learn to trust in God. It's hard to place complete trust in God when you feel that you can handle life (in the good times) all by yourself and so you consult in God less than you would if you were having a hard time. This is my thought process. Sorry if my terms are offensive (like old people, they are people, they are old... not that they don't have debt or problems) just using them to make a point.
FEELING THE NEED FOR A NEW BABY. Yeah I know you look at life recently and anyone in their right mind would be like... why do you want to have a baby (financially) right now? I mean you guys are barely making it for the 3 of you. It is funny how having kids you thought you wouldn't be able to find the money but somehow you always find that you can do it, make it. Reality. Logic tells me that it would be better if we waited till Rob was done with school but my heart wants to have another baby now so Titus will have a close sibling and a playmate because I will have to have one on top of there other if I still want four (maybe more) after I start the next one and I don't want him to be ousted older sibling that has no one to play with. Can't argue with emotions... I know, you never really know how they will be and that he might be great being so much older with his siblings but my heart hurts for the possibilities of it being different. He will be a great older brother though :)
WHAT I WILL MISS GOING BACK TO WORK. Mostly my other girl friends that are at home, hanging with them during the day when life is not as fasted paced. But I suppose their is weekends to possible have a play date (hopefully). I feel like I have a nice network of people to socialize with and I know how I get when my time starts chipping away (let alone when I have of time), I am social but I don't make a great effort to reach out and touch, talk, or hang with people (it is an effort when I do it, I wish it came more naturally because I really do love my family and friends). AND all the special projects around the house that I have time to get done during the day (when I have nothing else to do).
MY GOALS: The biggest is to keep making meals at home. I save so much money by making my meals and not eating out all the time. This will be harder working (lunch time) and lack of down time during the day to prep meals. But I am hoping my meal plan will help me keep on task :)
PICTURES: This wouldn’t be a typical blog without pics J Enjoy!
About Me
- marciasArena
- I am in metamorphosis, my world has been altered and I exist in my past and present and look forward to my future. Sometimes I get lost in the chaos that is life but still I am managing to learn to live again. This is a look into the inner workings of my mind!
